because i can!

i just finished my last paper for the semester and can relax a little... til finals come a knockin'. ewwww! so i'm staying up later than i should because... ready for it?... i can!!! hahahaa

i knew i wanted to say something just not sure what. some stuff has been happening but not really worth mentioning on here and God kinda removed the struggle in my heart YAY GOD! so don't need to worry about it anymore. on that point i'm just more resolved : ) so what to say...

well my mom and i had talked a little this evening about the whole school decision and the dance thing. understandably she's scared - it's risky. but i was trying to explain where i was coming from, how passionate i feel. it was so cute, she said maybe you are passionate but i've been so used to you being a passionless person it's taking a while for me to get used to it or recognize what it looks like in you. : ) love her! i also was telling her what i had talked about earlier that my whole like i had never ever gone out on a limb for anything, innocent or disobedient (you know what i mean!). so it was about the flippin' time! i'm almost 20! so even if this fizzles, who cares?! it's hopefully going to do some good, i want to spread a hunger for God not do devil worship or anything ; ) i know this is extreme - get over it! : ) but with my mom's logical concerns i started to ponder "is this what i should be doing?" "what the heck are you doing wesley?!" "you are nuts!" i had to force these from my head as i needed to finish writing about Candide's failure as a person, ah the joys of research papers... : P

then i was back here, done with the paper, yep sorry Candide(persona) is dumb and shallow, and wanting to blog. then i was reminded you need to read the psalm for the day thanks mr. mike for that! so psalm 20 was cracked, and God once again blew my mind. i literally wept. it spoke directly to my concerns from earlier. and somehow i am shocked at this every time, man God you can really do that? the psalm for today just happened to apply in a freakishly specific way! and i wonder at this when this same Dude created all life and just happens to make the plants grow and the cosmos keep turning - ooo get this:

scientist(apart from God) are STUPID! "the wisdom of man is foolishness to God". so in astronomy i'm taking this semester we just went over "dark matter". this, boys and girls, is actually nothing. in a galaxy stars should be revolving more slowly as you approach the edge of it according to newtonian physics and his gravitational laws but for "some unexplainable reason" they are moving faster. so they say that this dark matter is their giving it more mass and thus reason to revolve faster. plus galaxies are orbiting each other too fast also so there exists dark matter between them, because we can't explain what it making them spin faster than our laws say they should spin there must be something out there. yea how bout GOD! i can just see Him now sticking His finger in a galaxy and stirring it up as astronomers are making measurements and calculations. as they scratch their heads He giggles and when they brilliantly proclaim dark matter exists he guffaws.

ANYWAY so Psalm 20 is what i needed to the "T" our God is the real mind freak! ehh i'm getting all giddy, He's so cool! echem... : )

Psalm 20

1 May the LORD answer you in the day of trouble! May the name of the God of Jacob set you {securely} on high!

2 May He send you help from the sanctuary And support you from Zion!

3 May He remember all your meal offerings And find your burnt offering acceptable! Selah. 4 May He grant you your heart's desire And fulfill all your counsel!

5 We will sing for joy over your victory, And in the name of our God we will set up our banners. May the LORD fulfill all your petitions.
6 Now I know that the LORD saves His anointed; He will answer him from His holy heaven With the saving strength of His right hand.

7 Some {boast} in chariots and some in horses, But we will boast in the name of the LORD, our God.

8 They have bowed down and fallen, But we have risen and stood upright.

9 Save, O LORD; May the King answer us in the day we call.