every now and again

"every now and again sometimes i get lost in the waves of a dream" yep... that pretty much says it. i get carried away and lose my head. then i kick myself for doing it then i kick myself for not turning to God first. but i always wonder was it really wrong in the first place. oy. yep my life is over-thinking. but i am reminded tonight of God's goodness. i shouldn't worry about anything because worry is just a sign of a lack of trust on my part and basically telling God that i don't think He can pull through for me. but if track records mean anything, He has NEVER let me down. Never! i was talking with someone the other day and i came to realize whenever i come to a crisis in my life and start trying to turn it over to God, therefore start looking at life through spiritual eyes (this SHOULD be all the time) all of my shortcomings spiritually boil down to a lack of trust ultimately in God, yes i people to a degree but the buck stops at God. i just don't trust like i should. tonight however i am not that worried. i have a million things pressing on my thoughts but i don't feel like it's the end of the world. i am just running to the throne room of grace and crying out to my Abba for wisdom. and one thing He has reminded me of is that i have representations of Him here on earth: in my parents who i love like nothing at all and my best friend. without her i couldn't make it through anything.
this is for you : )

I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the tv light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us
I remember when
We used to laugh
And now I wish those nights would last