Monday, May 26, 2008

from: the shield

tonight i had a realization: life is comprised of nothing but spans of life lived for others. at least that's how it seems to be in my life. but as depressing and restraining as that sounds... it actually produces a wonderful sense of freedom and accomplishment. maybe this results because, unknown to me, i am being Christ in someone's life. i am doing something that to the naked eye gives me nothing. i am dying to self and letting Christ reign in me - hopefully. that is one of the greatest feelings i think in a Christian's walk: knowing i have been completely taken over by the Spirit and am doing something that is not for me. although i have about three situations where this applies now and none of them were my idea; God just kind of threw me in there and now i am just beginning to, i pray, see the right side of the tapestry. but if this is all God wills for my life: stumbling so someone else may learn, building without being built upon, and being there when i don't necessarily want to, so be it. i am being Christ for someone. Christ must increase, i must decrease. Is this what you want God? HERE I AM; SEND ME!

1 comment:

Abi said...

wow, your turn for major deepness! Thank you, really.